Thursday, June 29, 2006

If you had to do it over again

I watched the movie "Butterfly Effect" this afternoon. I don't have any opinion about Ashton Kutcher, except that he's cute and he's a better actor that I realized. The movie is very thought-provoking. It is about a young man who, when he reads the journals he kept as a child, is transported back to whatever incident is indicated on the page he is reading. When he realizes he can do this, he tries to use the book to right numerous wrongs that happened to those he loves--and almost always with disastrous results. It takes a number of tries before he gets everything 'right.' I highly recommend this movie, but a caveat: it is NOT for children. There is some pretty disturbing stuff in this, not to mention some 'adult' stuff (although I give them credit for not really showing anything.) But it gets me thinking: if I could go back in time with complete impunity and change certain things, would I? I mean...if I wouldn't mess up my own personal spot on the space/time continuum and blink my husband and kids out of existence? Oh, you bet I'd take that chance. I'd like to jump on my brother's case about the drugs he was taking...before he even left for Vietnam, where it got worse. Maybe he'd be here today. I'd like to stand up to the various bullies that treated me, and others, like cr*p in school. Who exactly did they think they were? Lots of changes. What I wouldn't change: meeting my husband when I was 15 and he was 17. Getting married. Having four great kids--except, for kids 1 & 2, I'd switch doctors. I would also (and this goes back to very recent history) pay much, much closer attention to the fine print and all the extra fees and expenses they tack on your credit card when you aren't looking. Yeah, so long as no one would get hurt, there's lots of things I'd like to change!

2 comments:

Janice (5 Minutes for Mom) said...

yes changing anything could alter everything as we know it. my mistakes made me who I am and where I am. if I hadn't dated that guy and wasted three years of my life, then i wouldn't have been where i was at the time i started dating my husband. etc. it goes on and on. I really wish i could change some decisions - but fortunately i don't have the chance. because if we could, then life would be crazy out of control.

Mom2fur said...

I know...really, we'd always be 'second guessing' ourselves and going back in time! But it's an interesting thought, isn't it?